gving up...

I want romance . i need it ! why ? that's simple . because it is part of my love's journey . Without romance , i think i will be nothing . Plainly nothing . I need them . And yet i did not receive it . Why cant u just text me oftenly ? A plain greeting will do . I will be elated enough to receive that . But , I have to text and call u oftenly , and u didnt reply most of the time and did not answer my calls or rejected it . Why ??? So many question marks roamed in my head . I m so confused . And, you did sms me once only . And after a while , you ended the conversation abruptly and did not reply after that . I can understand that you're busy bcos o-levels is coming next year and u need to prepare for it . And You said that you will change , i believed you . But , in the end , you did not . We said that we will not last long and you said we will . TWICE ! And , i chose to believe you . I know that you're a quite shy and quiet person . And on the phone , you said that it is awkward so you ended the conversation . I understand . Im very tired . I have to text you most of the time and yet I was disappointed . You said that if I accepted your feelings , you will answer my calls no matter what . But you just answered once , the rest of the time nothing . Why ? You want me to be one-sidely involved and you didnt do anything . Sorry if I hurt your feelings but I want to tell you how I felt . If you are reading this , I hope you could understand how I feel and felt . And I wish you and me could do something about this issue . And I do not know whether BUSY is an excuse or its true , but yet I chose to believe you . I wish you would reconsider this issue thoroughly and seriously whether we could continue walking down . If not , its time for both of us to look for REAL happiness .
Shall end here now .

I once again dragged my heavy feet to school this cozy morning... My Milo Cereal is the one who provided me with strengthXD. I was not one bit elated over this... I m still out cold. Lessons continued... My heavy eyelids almost lead me into my dreamworld,but thank goodness, I destroyed the will to sleep and concentrated in class...(:

During Science lesson, there is one annonymous bee buzzing around which seemed to find a target and commit suicide. How evil was that bee? We were almost letting our bladder go wild... thank goodness our bladders were strong afterall:D And today, we were supposed to have a class party. But, due to three people who cannot make it, we have to cancel and postpone it to friday. Plans were ruined once again... I think things just cant go my way. But who cares right?XD

And I cut my hair!! Its freaky... Though its layered... So? When I saw the hairdresser cutting. The sound: "tss" "tss". I felt that everything was going to be fine? But maybe its too short, thus my ponytail only 2-3cm... My hair was ripped off! Haha... My Hair had gone back where it belonged... The Hairdresser's home! LOL!

Okay, Tomorrow is the swimming exam. I think I am using my fate to compensate the loss of not having a chance to swim. May The sun welcomed the candidats and the examiners. May the gentle breeze bring upon a cool sensation to the examiners. Let the mighty US be a great help to the examiner's mood and apetite for the rest of the day. And, may the pool be warmed and touched by the sun's golden rays and high hopes of the examiners. Let the current be obedient to its master, the controller. Let it just BEHAVE for once.

Shall end here now~~

NO!! I cant believe this, cant enjoy the cooling serenity of the water, letting my hair being blown by the gentle breeze!!?
Why does the sky has to let its little babies off by dropping onto the ground with pitter- patter sound?? Why does the babies seem to cry louder each and everytime when they were let off? Why the babies could not stop crying??
The rain doesnt seem to halt to a stop... My Mood was ruined and my plans were boomed by the rain... Does History has to repeat itself each and everytime when my plans were perfect??
Let's start now...
Today I planned to go to CCK complex as usual to have a swim. I was as happy as a lark when the Sun shoned brightly and its rays warming the ground. I studied, ate my breakfast and played computer games. After a while, the Sun seemed to had a battle with the clouds and were trampled upon and sent back to its "SUNNY TOWN"... The clouds took over the sky and showed off its victory by raining heavily... But this was not a victory to me at all?
My head was like a chimney letting its smoke raged out furiously. I was PISSED off. A perfectionist's plans were ruined!! How could this be?
I then planned other stuffs to do but while doing them, I was not even filled with glee but flled with anger and devastation...
PLAN WAS RUINED AGAIN.
I wondered how my swimming test would fair on that fateful day. I had to use my own fate to compensate the loss of not having a chance to practice swimming... T_T

Just my luck...

Today is just my luck... I decided to go for swimming despite my flu as my flu is getting better. So, I packed my bag, combed my hair and my mom accompanied me to CCK complex...
Whlie waiting for bus 307, I was praying that the weather would be fine as it was drizzling... My prayers were answered(: The weather got better. My spirits were enlighnted. Bus 307 came..Me and my mom hopped onto the bus and set off...
When we were arriving at CCK Int... The bus' card's system suddenly went gonk. The bus driver had to hop down the bus and fix it. Thus 1 minute was wasted..
Continued with the journey... After a long n boring trip... We arrived. I was delighted!!
I walked up the stairs and carefully minded my steps as the floor was slippery. Reached the stadium. I like a lost cat was searching for the swimming pool... FINALLY. The swimming pool was found. I was so glad but the gates of the swimming pool's doors were shut tight and firm. I gasped and stepped back. My heart sank down deep to the valley.. I cant believe my luck. The swimming pool was CLOSED FOR MAINTENANCE? MAINTENANCE= CLEANING OF SWIMMING POOL WITH CHLORINE. chlorine? I HATED CHLORINE. Why cant they just cleaned the pool during the times when I was in school studying with my head held down? WHY WHY WHY!!
I was SOSOSOSO disappointed.. I told my mother and my mother sighed. SIGHED?! THIS is the first time!!
I guessed she shared the same sentiments as me. If I dont swim and built up my stamina... I may just jolly well flunked my swimming test this thursday. I am totally pissed off...
But What could I do?
1)Ask Hercules to posess my body and open the door?
2)Wear an anti-electrical suit and prevent myself from zapping to death and borrow the minimizing 100x gadget from doraemon from preventing them to see me?
3)Or, clean the pool with a vaccum cleaner??
ARGH! I totally hate it! Why cant I be rich and owned this pool? If i owned this pool, I can do whatever I like to it!
Thats the bad thing about being normal citizen. No privileges, and I do not even have a member card!!!? How pathetic is that? argh.. I think I should be a member of whatever club... Then I will keep myself up the fashion trend..Hmm.. Will consider that soon enough(:
I shall go swimming tomorrow as the pool will be totally cleaned by chlorine tomorrow..
And no drizzling or thunderstorm tomorow please...
I want the Sun to welcome me with its orange rays of light shining(:
And one more thing.. I wish I wont taste too much chlorine, I want my kidneys to enjoy serving me!! hahaXD

Common tests over(:

haha.. common tests are over.. returning to normal life again.. slacking and playing com as well(: haha!! today during literature, there is one teacher by the name of Mrs Toh came. dont really know well about her.. but who cares right??

Today, that wang ah boo really made me mad.. haix.. there is nobody sitting according to register number but him.. that ******* came and throw his bloody books on my desk. and ask me to shift.. we quarreled..(DUH)then I just move cos Ms Chan came in and I did not want to make a big mess outta this..

I moved seats, not happy lorhs.. then after that wab also moved back to his original seat and me too^^ FINALLY..
i ignored WAB and he said me pity.. what the hell? oh well.. who cares.. lessons as usual.
Then during recess, Me and June went to the library to check out chinese presentations, i realised thatt I did not save my presentation in my thumbdrive! argh.. but Mr wang didnt ask us to present so I escaped!Yay^.^

Math test, then going through science paper, then assembly... its so boring... i HATE assembly.. donno why. but if some entertaining programmes, i wont mind larhs(: ahaha. then wang ah boo used his vanguard board and then placed behind my back.. walao.. keep on moving.. i scolded him and he just ignored. argh.. and he called me for no reason! is he lame or what? i think he just bo liao.. real bo liao de wang ah boo.. haix..

Now, lets talk about recess.. Denise pulled me because we wanted to walk different staircases, she like a crazy woman pulled me to go with her next staircase but I insisted on another staircase.. haix.. thank goodness JingYi saved me.YAY My arms were red. Poor meT.T next time must follow her to the staircase that she likes ,or else my hands will be dislocated! haha... no lah.. jkjkXD
Shall end here now~~
Wish me good luck for home econ practical tomorrow!
Bye~

Hey readers. No post yesterday. Paiiseh... I was quite busy yesterday. Busy studying for math test. See i so guaiix.. LOL! jkjk... Anyway, My blog is being spammed again.. I suspect is one person I know but I cant tell. I recognise _handwriting. So um.. Don think I don say means I don know.
Have math test today. I think I will pass but not with FLYING COLOURS. Anyway, I put in effort. I think my parents are not going to scold me:) Today Home Econ is super funny! MR fairuz wanted to know our names. then after that, we told him our names. Then Its like he got pronounciation errorXD. He go and say our names until like very weird. Then everybody laugh like siao.*cough* Then He got a big sense of humour lor.. When He speaks, can make alot of people laugh... lol! I really love Home Economics. Its so much better than D&T:) At least can cook. I love cooking whatXP. To all those D&T pupils JYJY good luck:) Bear with it! Sometimes, It will be fun too:P
I think I will sleep at 9.30 tonight. Or else I will be super duper tired tomorrow.. Okay.. shall end here now. Adios~


我知道那是谁。
一旦说了。我就会失去她。我不能说。 请到此为止。不要以为我不说， 我就不知道。。请反省一下。 我知道你一定会说不是你的。
不要再骗了好吗？真的！够了！
不要假惺惺好吗？

back to school...

Yay! Back to school already...
Today, we had history. I guess that all of the 1e2'ians including me are excited to know who is our new history teacher..
Just as the class was making noise, a tall _ walked in.. All of us were like0.0! Omg! Then I just said:"OMG! A guy?" Nevermind.. Got to accept the truth anyway.. So MR Lam started to introduce himself and I think he is pretty funny. Haha:]
During science class.. I was so tired and I could not even concentrate on what Ms Crystal Ho was teaching. Eyes almost closing... So tired.. I think I just could not adapt to the sudden change of waking up early.XP
During english class.. its so hilarious lorx.. there is one video called.. I cant remember already. But its really hilarious. You should go visit it. I think i will confirm tomorrow. This show is about like how to keep yourself clean and all those stuffs.. Its really funny! haha:]
Math class-I don't know what Ms Tan did, but I saw her marker dropping off from the whiteboard.Then, the whole class burst into laughter. =.=
Art class- boring... (no offence)
Then back homesweet home...
Posting now.
I think i should go study now. I shall end here...

These few days so much things have happened...
I seriously don't know why the passerbys or the people I know! are even trying to spam my cbox. Seriously, passerbys- can you have some manners? Since you do not want to put your name which your parents gave you... then why you bother to tag at my cbox? Haave I not make myself clear enough to you or you are just plain lame and bored to do so? I already wrote that I only want nice tags and if you hate me, just get out right? You do not know english? Or you came from foreign countries and you just met your "good" luck and ran into my blogg?


I tolerated enough!



To passerby: Do you think it is really fun and so called"interesting" to do so? what is your problem? Do you like when people started spamming your blog with so called no sense of logic behind it? If this continues, neccessary actions will be taken against you . So there are two ways, either you own up or you just leave my blog and dont ever appear again. Bcos I am going to report it to my form teacher. And in your tag, you mentioned that you are not scared of teachers right? Bear it in mind! I will do that if you continue to spam my blog. Once bitten, twice shy. I will not allow this to happen to any other people.
So for now.. To passerby: I already made myself clear! If you want to continue, have "fun"...
But after having"fun", you are not going to have "fun" anymore.
I shall end here now...

HI!! think will be blogging often cos early dismissal from school^^
Hey. back to serious stuff now.. Today We had the math paper.. its okay for me for paper 1..
paper 2 okok only... ok-a little hard. this range..
Tomorrow Its literature.. haix.. i hate all subjects offered in secondary.. primary school life is so much so much better.. i am so sad.. i donno how to cope with the upcoming exams and subjects! I wanna work hard... but I SO　ＬＡＺＹ．．．　ｚｚｚ．　ｇｏｔ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ．．ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｍ　ｐｌａｙｉｎｇ　ｐｅｔ　ｓｏｃｉｅｔｙ　ｎｏｗ．．　Ｔ０　ｗｉｌｓｏｎ：ｈｅｙ．．　ｉｔｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｌａｍｅ　ｏｋａｙ．．　ｉｔｓ　ｙｏｕ　ｄｏｎｎｏ　ｈｏｗ　ｔｏ　ａｐｐｒｅｃｉａｔｅ　ｉｔ．．　ｄｏｒｔｓ．．　ｏｋ．．　ｂｙｅ　ｒｅｍｅｍｂｅｒ　ｔｏ　ｌｅａｖｅ　ｎｉｃｅ　ｔａｇｓ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｌｅａｖｉｎｇ．．．　ｂｙｅｓ～～

Erm.. hey back.
Today wanna go silvia's house to revise.. but my momma last minute say canoot.. SO SORRY silviaT.T Next time I will sure come your house!
Let's recap.. Last 2 days got English & Higher Chinese.. haiz.. so tough
Today got GeographyT.T i think i m going to flunk all my subjects and drop to NA.. sads.. *cry*
So.. after crying... lol..lets get back to the reality.. now currently blogging(DUH).. erm.. ya. have alot of upcoming exams i haven studied yet. .what the crap? haiz.. nvm i need to jy for my CA2 and SA2!! MUST!!
OK.. byes. wont blog often.. having math examz tomorrow.. ... haiz...
xianz.. Ok byes readers! those who tag my board nicely! TakeCare^^ Byes!
Those who dont! scram lah.. fcuk off..

Sorry.. long time no post ler.
Hey.. im back! hahas. tomorrow until 14th May is going to be an examination week.. haiz.. stressed siaz.. i think i m going to flunk?? nvm... i need to study! seriously.. i had been realising that i m lacking of concentration and studying... i need to chiong alot!
i WANT to pass my math and science with okay colours...
craps. i think i will like fail... nvm... Hand this to God!
In June, its going to be a fun month! got alot of activities planned.. wish I can carry it out without obstacles..
Bye readers~~
GTG

CRAP!!
i hate it!
Why are my tagboard full of vulgarities? To people who are ...IF you hate me, just use Your name which your parents give you alrite? ? instead usinng nonsensical things to act as a name.. i tell you all.. stop all that nonsense.. before i report it to teacher..
Argh!!
Ya. sorry readers>< i havent post for long ... if you hate my blog.. just scram if you hate me...........
Erm.. ya. today as usual i went to school.. do stuffs and all that.. and during english lesson.. miss chandran was so mad that she scolded all of us for being so lazy .. is it? i donno.. don care.. then she says the highests in class are only 25/50! how pathetic is that!!! T.T We must jiayou lers.. to the people who got 25. jiayou!!:D congratz too:)
today during art.. i thought mr azhar bo come.. then we all talk... talktalktalktalk... then Mr marshall came and then say:"i m going through the exam format with my class, can you all keep your volume down and blahblahblahs..." then after he left, brandon said he very fit! LOL!! then the guys started to think sick.. maybe he think brand is a gay..wwaha. sorry brandon! (no offence) Then we also saw Ms Lee running... then Wilson started his hyena laugh then i also started to laugh cos its like funny?? 0.o? obvious...? cos mis lee run very funny.. LOL! then after that i think the guys laugh too loud ler.. and then miss lee turned to us !! and then she says yes?? then they guys were like o.o.. then miss lee was like-.-"
LOL!
then recess..
geography...
maths...
Chinese.. LOL! Mr Wang was like going through the textbook.. then faith veri bad.. locked mindy outside... mindy stll got so many bottles in her hand she was a kind soul!! :) help alot of people to refil bottles! Poor Mindy..>.<
Then After that, Mr Wang started to say stuffs.... then after that the whole class like laughed like siao.. say huixin and denise got big tooth can "kai guan tou" very insulting leh.. he only jk lah..
Then he very bad also.. say faith only at his waist there.... haiz.. he 1.84m.. faith nvm... mr wang only jk jk nvm lahs.. okay?? don be emo also... not nice emo..
Ya.. i think that's all.. i think i m going to invite only Authorized people to read my blog.. seriously!

Broken Heart...

Today walao.. i almost late for school lor.... I woke up at 6.30am... I set my alarm at 5.30 as i had something on to do:D then when my alarm rang.. i woke up ... then after that too tired.. then sleep then wake up at 6.30!!! i was so late lor.. then i choing like siao .. then in the end i go out from my house like 6.55am.. then i had to ask my father for $10 as i want to take taxi cos i scared i miss bus later kena late.. later got beta formm... beta form leave my life!!! GET OUT!!
REACH SCHOOLL... people were tokin tokin tokin tokin... then morning assembly.. then after that.. lessons lah... walao during art hor..my art was not accepted and i have to redo again.. and i forgot to bring my art materials kena got detention at monday......T.T
Now currently poking my pimple ... the thing inside broke.. then after that got yellow colour thing then after that got blood.. using hand to wiping it.... eeewww because i am posting mah.. and i love to use computer... i don wan to leave it alone for even 1 secondXD
Then after that... just just before Geography... my heart was broken...
Haha. i wiped it off! woohoo! (siao ah me)..
Today during chinese class.. our chinese teacher Mr wang said no chinese test! The whole class cheared like siao!!
woohoo!!
..and then he ended up playing with us this game called... in chinese:duilian.. damn difficult lah.... so sianz.. slacked.. drawing things in my book!!chinese is the last period
then we went for lunch with crystal and joey.. then after that crystal accompanied me to buy bubble tea! wah! that auntie give the pearls hor.. alot one leh! shuangz lor=)
then after that have CO aka ChineseOrchestra!! WAH! i go play the.. yangqin.. then after that i sian.. i go CO room i play drum.. then got one senior said i gifted nia..!
GIFTED SIA!!1
THANKS SENIOR!
...
nothin to tok ler..
now currently the com and the whole house is mine !!
My parents are out!!
YAY!
And btw.. i wuld try to post post post more often!!

I just created a new blog, so erm.. pls read my blog more as i think i will be posting often.. i don't really know how to place a tagboard on it.. so, who is kind enough to teach me? i will be very grateful to you!

Now, let's tok about 2dae, today wah!o.o early dismissal nia, we were dismissed at 11am just because of the sports day this afternoon. Many of us dont really know what bus to take either:P... Me okok lahs, but in the end, reach there can lers...
Today, MingGui and MissChandran both cut their hair.. LOL! MingGui said that MissChandran copied her.. MissChandran said she did not....... hahas! Actually, MingGui, honest speaking:"You should take off your specs if you can see" Cos that will make you look prettier:D:D
Today, Joel was sitting beside me.. and then he kept on singing... And then when Joel sneezed without covering his mouth, i made a "tsk" sound... MissChandran scolded Joel also for not covering his mouth for sneezing... Aiyoh.. careless me.. today i did not give Jolene and other group members the script for them to rehearse......... We are going to perform at thursday... So sads and anxious!!! i havent even prepare yet lorz:(..
Today still got Journal to do... And when we are cutting the article for our homework, asher cut an article but on the back side nt(backside)... on the article, there's one lady who is just wearing so called bikini dressing.. then i donno who said Asher pervertic.. purposely pick that article......
LOL!funny... Still need to do my work.. and later still need to go to CCK stadium.. I taking 307..* I MUST OPEN MY EYES BIGBIG!!! later kena sit 307E.. drop at cck interchange still going to take 307 again.. waste of money and time T.T....
Bye readers.. got to go.. I promise I will Post MOREMORE often!!
Got lotsa homework to do... sianz.... Gotta Go! Bye~